Today is my birthday =) I would just like to start by thanking all of my wonderful family, friends, and distant acquaintances for the outpouring of well wishes. It's been a very difficult weekend, for reasons that many of my readers will already know, but for the most part I enjoyed my passing into the 22nd year of being.
I don't think I've ever talked much at my faith on here, but it's a big part of my life, and I've really been feeling it this weekend, and not just because it was Easter. I lost a new, and extremely young friend on Friday, and I've spent a lot of time questioning myself and questioning God, which I know you should never do, but it's hard not to in a situation like this one. The conclusions were all good ones. Sometimes you just have to throw up your hands and admit that you don't have and will never find all the answers. The comfort, I guess, is in knowing that God does. I realize that we Christians tend to wear out the whole "God has a plan" thing, but it really is a phenomenal source of comfort when you stop and think about it. I met and bonded with this precious little girl in the last week of her life for a reason. All of the conversations we had happened for a reason, and she was taken for a reason.
When I was a senior in high school, I wrote a paper for my English class entitled "The Tapestry." Don't laugh because it was a flawless paper. Even the ultimate critic, Mr. Austin of Rhea County High School couldn't find fault with it. Anyway, in it, I talked about how life is like a tapestry in that when you stand really close to one, it looks like a total mess. You can see each individual thread, all of a different color, and they seem so random. It's not until you back away to see the full picture that you see the perfect image that they come together to create. I think this tragedy is one of those odd threads. Right now, I can't find a place or a meaning for it, but at some point, I'll know why it's there.
Sorry for the serious tone and introspection. I'm just not in the frame of mind to be light hearted.
On a final note, I just finished watching The First Wives Club, which oddly enough has been one of my favorite movies since I was 7 years old and didn't even really know what divorce meant. I suppose I've always loved seeing a woman stand up and take charge of her life. These are the women that I most aspire to be like. Anyway, this movie always leaves me feeling happy and empowered, and it is also relevant to this blog because these women have gumption in droves, so here you go.
I don't think I've ever talked much at my faith on here, but it's a big part of my life, and I've really been feeling it this weekend, and not just because it was Easter. I lost a new, and extremely young friend on Friday, and I've spent a lot of time questioning myself and questioning God, which I know you should never do, but it's hard not to in a situation like this one. The conclusions were all good ones. Sometimes you just have to throw up your hands and admit that you don't have and will never find all the answers. The comfort, I guess, is in knowing that God does. I realize that we Christians tend to wear out the whole "God has a plan" thing, but it really is a phenomenal source of comfort when you stop and think about it. I met and bonded with this precious little girl in the last week of her life for a reason. All of the conversations we had happened for a reason, and she was taken for a reason.
When I was a senior in high school, I wrote a paper for my English class entitled "The Tapestry." Don't laugh because it was a flawless paper. Even the ultimate critic, Mr. Austin of Rhea County High School couldn't find fault with it. Anyway, in it, I talked about how life is like a tapestry in that when you stand really close to one, it looks like a total mess. You can see each individual thread, all of a different color, and they seem so random. It's not until you back away to see the full picture that you see the perfect image that they come together to create. I think this tragedy is one of those odd threads. Right now, I can't find a place or a meaning for it, but at some point, I'll know why it's there.
Sorry for the serious tone and introspection. I'm just not in the frame of mind to be light hearted.
On a final note, I just finished watching The First Wives Club, which oddly enough has been one of my favorite movies since I was 7 years old and didn't even really know what divorce meant. I suppose I've always loved seeing a woman stand up and take charge of her life. These are the women that I most aspire to be like. Anyway, this movie always leaves me feeling happy and empowered, and it is also relevant to this blog because these women have gumption in droves, so here you go.
I think it's okay to question God. I mean, I think he puts things in our lives that will make us question Him because in the end, it makes our relationship with Him so much stronger. Each time I question God, I gain perspective. I take time to really figure out why I believe in Him, and that allows another root in our relationship to grow.
ReplyDeleteI like this point of view. Thanks Megan =)
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